It’s quite strange that sometimes you can innocently make comment on something apparently unrelated to anything else going on around, then discover a whole host of correlates sort of backing you into a corner until you find yourself caught in the paradox and needing to break (open). I’ve noticed before when this kind of thing happens it comes at you from all angles and isn’t necessarily pertaining to one type of thing or the rights and wrongs of you or others, more the fractal breaking open and open and open, taking all with it. Of course I can only take responsiiblity for my own breaking. Whether others choose to take the ride and benefit from it is not relevant to me, nor for me to take responsibility for. But that said I also need the courage to say what I need to, because it’s all interconnected and interwoven and if I place myself out of that or not in relation to the entire pattern I can’t break either.
There’s a strange beauty as well as discomfort in such moments, for three reasons. First because the pattern briefly reveals itself, second because it is in these moments where I realise for all I know I know nothing at all so can resee with new eyes and third because I not only know the connection to all, I feel and see it.